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So I definately experienced my first nervous breakdown with USF. Reason why, you ask? Well let’s start with Monday: 2 papers, an interview for another paper, meeting with professor, tuesday: Work, and homework for wednesday Wednesday: Homework due…at the library all day Thursday: work and my interview with Jacaranda for the position I REALLY REALLY WANT! Friday: work and prep for my saturday class meeting Saturday: storytelling assignment in Tampa…in which i must regale a story with out the book EEK! Sunday: work, breath, and pick classes for next semester.

So yeah that pretty much sums it up….However good things have happened today – the lovely Lady I interviewed told me that she would e-mail the person interviewing me on thursday and put in a good word. How awesome! So that’s my week in a nutshell and why I’m spazzing out.

One good thing – Matthew is looking at a new car…Possibly a Camry…:-) that would make me happy, esp if it’s an automatic so I can drive it…Alright that’s all

Ciao,
Anna

Also, can anyone tell me why I’m sucked into shows like Blue’s Clues and Dora the Explorer?? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?!?!?!?

Hmm even if I did like Halloween I don’t think I’d be an Alien…just isn’t me…MAYBE! I’ll just be a Grad Student!! I have all the stuff to complete that look, INCLUDING going to class on halloween, suck-i-ness.

Your Haloween Costume Should Be

An Alien

1.) I love going bare foot especially when I’m working on homework or real work, but I hate walking barefoot outside because of the dirt.
2.) I really want to be on the Amazing Race just to travel with my partner but I think I’d kill my oppenents which would be bad
3.) I like to learn new things but I love doing it on my own. Like Knitting and Crochetting – I wanted to learn them on my own – it’s me being independent
4.) I like walking, a lot
5.) I get scared about the stupidest stuff when I’m alone…Like the AC will run and I think a scary man is standing over my bed with a knife…
6.) I really enjoy putting together furniture by myself. I enjoy using the tools and finding out how things fit together
7.) I’m really afraid of failing grad school :-8.) I can’t handle washing my hands and not putting on lotion…okay I can’t help not putting on lotion every minute of the day
9.) I’m picky about shopping and there are not many people I really enjoy shopping with but I’ll shop with anyone
10.) My most preferred position for sleeping is one leg in and one leg out…So I don’t get too cold or too hot.

If you enjoyed this, do it yourself!!! Oh and let me know if you knew any of these….Let’s see how secretive I really am.

I’m so strange today….Like I’m all jittery because I had a think of caffeiene (uhoh…) but I’m super emotional right now b/c of the monthly visitor…Like I’m all mopey because I miss my friends in O-HI-O. I wish I could have them all move in right now with me…But I’m happy because I’m making some good changes to my life. And then I’m also on that rollar coaster ride called “Grad School!” and right now I’ve gone over two small hills and swerved around a sharp (read: enjoyable) turn and now I’m creeping up that STEEP hill that frightens me but I know ultimately when i get to the top I’ll see over the bottem and everything and then I will be able to bulldoze through all my future school work. I’m just totally not motivated, but I’m getting there… I’m definately ready for this roller coaster to be over..

And then I’m in bed last night, talk to matthew, and I’m getting so upset and jealous of him because I can’t do the things I enjoy. He enjoys messing with linux and stuff like that. I’m so proud of him for experimenting and keeping up with the technology and not letting it consume it like things I enjoy seemed to do to me. Like for me when I want to do a puzzle, I will forgo everything to work on it. I’ll avoid homework, instant messenger, sometimes even tv (*gasp*) the same thing happens for knitting, sewing, reading my own types of books, or other types of stuff. I know that i cannot pick anything like that up because I will stop doing school work all together. It scares me to even to try to do something fun. I’m afraid that I’ll be so sucked in that I won’t be able to get out and that I’ll fail school. Ideally I’d love to be able to casually pick up something and work on it. I even keep my knitting out to just pick up and work with when i watch tv but I keep myself from doing that b/c I’m so afraid. This is not fair!!! I want to be able to play computer games, read agatha christie and do a damn puzzle!!! When school is over, I will not have kids until I’ve done just what I’ve listed….well ideally I won’t. I really hope this fear does not stay with me when I do have kids….I can’t be that neurotic, can I?? Argh, Sorry folks, just definately needed to get that out. NOw I gotta jet. Ciao.

So to procrastinate more I decided to update here. In one week I have lost 7lbs. YAY! I really hope weight watchers online will work for me. I’m doing pretty good. And it really gives me an incentive to exercise.

Work as been kinda crappy. It’s okay, I love helping people but I’m getting so aggrivated with some of the people I work with and it makes me want to throw up my hands and walk away. I’m not paid enough to deal with this kind of crap! However, the down side is the one jog I did apply for and would have really liked, i was denied for….because they were able to find someone who could work full time right now. However I got the feeling that they really wanted me to apply again and soon….so I’ll be doing that. It kinda sounded like I was the person they had in mind for it. oh well we’ll see.

The other thing that’s annoying me is my inability to get my homework done and well the amount of homework i have… yuck…I think it’s time to use the dry erase board. Yeah I think i’m going to do that right now…Oh, well, any words of encouragment would be greatly appreciated…I could use some now….

Leave your name and
1. I’ll respond with something random about you.
2. I’ll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I’ll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I’ll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I’ll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I’ll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I’ll ask you something that I’ve always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST.

Leave your name and
1. I’ll respond with something random about you.
2. I’ll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I’ll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I’ll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I’ll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I’ll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I’ll ask you something that I’ve always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST.

So I’ve decided to update because it’s been a while…

Busy with school and tomorrow I’ll be busy doing catch up…woops…:-
Work has been a freakin rollercoaster, some days good, some days bad, some people okay, other people beggin me to pull out all my hair. I’m still looking for a new job and I had 2 interviews this past week. The first one I thought was GREAT! I connected with the interviewee’s and answered all their questions amazable. The second one (tonight) was eh, so-so…I definately felt a lacking of connection there but I got to see my mom and dad so that was good. The awesome thing…When I got home there was a message from the Jaca Library asking for an interview that I REALLY want. So Hopefully I’ll be able to convey that and convince them that I am the one they want!

Personal stuff….I’ve started weight watchers. I’m really happy with it too! I’m using my palm to update and watch it when i’m away from home and all I have to do is type in the info then hot sync it and updates the webpage. It’s great b/c I can go to the bathroom at work and chill for a few while I enter in my info (Hey don’t lie now…we all do it!) I decided to sign up for it after hearing so many people who liked it and worked for them. It was kind of impulsive but I’m really glad I did it. I was getting depressed realizing how much I was out of shape. Now I have been riding the bike almost every day and it truly is an incentive for me to work out. If anyone wants to know more info then just let me know….It’s really good. Hopefully in a few weeks I”ll be able to tell you that I lost some more weight. That would be excellent. I think I already lost 5 lbs. (i measured on monday and tonigh measured and it was definately 5 lost lbs but i don’t know if it’s my weight fluctuating or me really working it off, I hope the latter…)

Anywho, I think that’s a substantial update. OH Matthew and I are doing well. I’m so happy with him. He really is an amazing person. I hope everyone is well! muah*

Your IQ Is 95

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Exceptional Your Mathematical Intelligence is Above Average Your General Knowledge is Average

For the record I would like to say that I am a genius, whether you believe it or not